I am feelin’ GOOD!

I have gone for weeks now without any physical reminder that I have a terminal condition! I have had NO pain. I am feelin’ GOOD!

That happened sometime between now and my last SAGA, when my dying from cancer became boring. So much so, I began to forget about my cancer. No, really!! I had stopped reading books, which well meaning friends brought to me, about dying. I stopped looking on line for explanations of every little annoying itch, ouch or discomfort. Instead, I flip through spring plant catalogues, and take inventory of the plants in my yard. I take notes about what needs repairing on the irrigation system and the house.

MY interest in cooking has been renewed as my appetite increased and my rearranged plumbing is more accepting of all kinds of food. I began cleaning out my closet and found clothes I couldn’t get into 6 months ago that now fit. A bonus, of sorts, to the weight loss.

But then there’s this…when I see a friend or someone I haven’t seen in a long while, they invariably say, “TJ, you look terrific!” or “You really look good, TJ.” I love the compliment, of course, but comments like those do make me wonder what they thought I might look like knowing I have cancer. I tell folks I’m pretty much going about my life as I did before cancer, with a few limitations (food and physical strength). I have mirrors in my house. I know I look thinner. But I hope I never look like death warmed over! Please, tell me if I do.

There is a daily issue I face – how much pig pancreatic enzyme to take before the three meals and two snacks I eat daily. No one seems to know what the exact dosage should be! Not even my doctor. There is a formula put out by the manufacturer, which is meant for every one according to their weight and how much fat they consume. My weight is holding steady at 110, down from 123 when I was first diagnosed, but the fat content of every morsel I put in my mouth?

Good grief, that’s questionable, and takes research. The only way recommended  by the manufacturer, to know if I don’t get enough piggy enzyme, is if my poop floats! It always seems to come down to pee and poop in these matters!! Poop “floaters” demand additional enzymes. But I can only take so many of those capsules a day. More and one might grow a tail!

Oh well….onward…oink,oink! I’m feeling GOOD!